| | Nope, my post about black/white/gray/color is cerebral. I also don't separate emotional from mental such that each exists in a vacuum (they are intertwined--- neurotransmitters help us in mental life AND emotional life); I just know which "arena" (for the most part, & for lack of a better word, too) I'm treading into, the connections, and try to know what is happening day-by-day so I can influence it.
But I know this topic is cerebral for me; the "gray area" isn't some blob, but a range. Hm, maybe I can describe it this way: I can look at this range, zoom in, and plunk myself down somewhere, then use black/white/color to figure out how things work at that focus. I can zoom out and plunk myself somewhere else along that line too.
For example, like looking at a rollercoaster from far away, yet also being able to remember and go through each moment that you actually rode the thing. At each moment you can compare what came before that moment, the moment itself, and what [may] come after. Each moment is connected to the next, and has its own context and dynamics. To me, this is plunking oneself in the "shades of gray" and holding context, being dynamic, and seeing complexity--- because you can still see the entire thing from a distance and hold that as well.
It's like zooming in and out of these visuals, at will; seeing the whole and the parts and controlling what you visualize.
I know this sounds like I drank the Kool Aid. My current 'project' with myself is to figure out a way to explain this to others. Usually most math geeks get it, some biologists, some physicists/chemists, as well as artists/creatives, and people who work with particulars that are involved in more complex organization. To do this, one needs to be able to hold onto a lot of things at once.
Ultimately, though, people will have to find out a way that works best for them--- what they can and are willing to do within their own potential. This is what I can do with my brain, I think of it as "systems thinking", and sometimes I meet people who just know because they naturally do it too-- either plain hardcore learning via their own life experience and/or that it's natural for them to do so. It comes to me naturally but I did not realize it until 3 years ago, and sometimes battled against it with awful results. Ignorance of one's own thinking patterns really hurts sometimes. I'm working with my nature now; hell if I'm ever going to work against it! :)
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